Super Angie...going on

I feel so much guilt going on with life without my mom around. I don't know, maybe guilt isn't the right word. I miss her a lot. I'm really happy she isn't sick anymore and isn't suffering. Her allergies were a constant problem- causing her to cough a lot. I'm so glad she isn't coughing anymore. But I wish I could call her up while I do the dishes or clean the house. Or drive to the rink. I know I can still talk to her, and I sort of do. But I also am tired of crying and talking to her or my heavenly father just makes me cry, so I'm kind of living in Denial.